When Death Blinks First

September 27th, 2024. There’s something peculiar about how certain dates tattoo themselves onto your consciousness. They become more than just another Friday – they transform into these invisible thresholds between who you were and who you become. That particular TGIF evening decided to rewrite not just our life’s trajectory, but our entire understanding of what it means to truly defy death.

You see, I used to think I knew what strength looked like. Metrics, growth numbers, successful pitches – the usual startup victories. Then life decided to throw us a plot twist that would make Coen brothers pause and say, “Maybe that’s a bit too intense?”

The Night When Time Forgot How to Flow

Hospitals have their own temporal physics. That Friday evening, time didn’t just slow down – it fragmented into a quantum puzzle that still haunts my understanding of reality:

8:00 PM: The moment when ordinary transformed into extraordinary. An artery above UT’s spleen chose this precise moment to challenge everything we thought we knew about life’s fragility. BP of 50/20. 6 IVs not able to maintain any normalcy in the body. 4.5 liters of blood lost in 120 minutes – numbers that shouldn’t be possible, yet there they were, mocking our assumptions about human limits.

10:30 PM: The emergency doctor’s words still echo: “He is very sick and anything can happen to him. But we need a CT scan.” Some sentences have such gravity to make the floor give way from under you. This was one of them.

11:00 PM: “Anything can happen on the operating table. We need a sign off.” Standing in that sterile corridor, staring at a consent form that felt more like a philosophical riddle than a medical document. How do you sign a paper that essentially asks you to acknowledge that your best friend, your co-founder, your partner in countless caffeine-fueled brainstorming sessions, might vanish into the void? Our families, separated by 2000 kilometres of helpless distance, while destiny demanded immediate answers.

The Art of Defying Universal Constants: Tales from the ICU

But here’s where the story transcends from medical drama to something almost mythical. Because while the universe was dealing its worst cards, UT decided to not just play the game – he rewrote the entire rulebook of what’s possible in an ICU.

Picture this: A man literally fighting for his life, tubes everywhere, vital signs being monitored 24/7, and what does he do? Gives away his fan to another patient because they were feeling hot. I mean, seriously UT? “Bhai khud ko sambhal le!!” But that’s UT for you – always putting others before himself, even when he’s literally at his lowest.

Then there’s the saga of his afternoon naps. Here’s a guy who’s supposed to be focusing on staying alive, right? Instead, he’s telling nurses – actual medical professionals – not to disturb his precious siesta time. The audacity! The nurses would walk in for vital checks, and he’d give them this look that clearly said, “Can’t a man get his beauty sleep in peace?”

But wait, it gets better. Remember, this is someone who’s supposed to be focusing on basic survival. Instead, UT’s out here demanding to know the time every few minutes like he’s got a train to catch. Because apparently, even when you’re in the ICU, time management is crucial. Classic startup founder mentality – always optimizing, even when paralyzed.

My personal favorite? The money signals while still on sedatives. There he was, barely conscious, and what’s he doing? Making money gestures with his fingers. I still don’t know if he was trying to remind me about our runway or planning his hospital bill strategy, but it was peak UT.

And then there’s the writing. Oh, the writing! Unable to speak? No problem. UT turned into Shakespeare meets Steve Jobs, churning out literally 10 pages of instructions daily in cursive, no less! Business strategies, product ideas, random thoughts – all meticulously documented as if he was writing the next great Silicon Valley memoir from his ICU bed.

Three days post-surgery, more tubes than human, barely able to move, what does this beautiful madman communicate first? “Business kaisa chal raha hai?”

In those moments, watching him transform an ICU bed into a command center for his own brand of organized chaos, I understood something profound about resilience – it’s not just about surviving, it’s about staying fundamentally, unapologetically yourself, even when the universe tries to rewrite your story.

The Meta of Being

Watching someone dance with mortality strips away every pretense we build our lives upon. In those sterile corridors, between the mechanical beeps and fluorescent lights, you learn that our existence is but a gentle whisper in the cosmic wind. Yet there lies a profound beauty in this fragility – not in spite of it, but because of it.

When most brush against death’s shadow, they return changed, often haunted. But watching UT was like witnessing an ancient truth unfold: that true strength lies not in denying our mortality, but in embracing it with grace, even humor. While the rest of us grappled with the weight of existence, he transformed his hospital bed into a F1 race track, turning corners at 200 km/ph, making it thrilling to watch but in all the wrong ways.

The December Renaissance

A month later, the world wears different colors. Time doesn’t heal all wounds; sometimes it just gives them better context. And in the context UT created, even those darkest September nights now shine with the light of his absurd, beautiful courage. When we speak of that month now, we don’t talk about what was lost or nearly lost – we talk about the guy who made the ICU staff check their watches more than they checked his vitals, who turned medical rounds into impromptu business meetings, and who reminded us that the human spirit, when properly unleashed, can make even Death itself stop for a moment and think, “Well, this is a first.”

A Letter to the Universe

Here’s to you, UT – the startup founder who made Death itself consider a pivot. The one who turned an ICU into an incubator for joy, writing business plans between sedatives and teaching nurses about customer service during vital checks. The man who redefined resilience by giving away his fan while fighting for his life, who probably saw those hospital corridors as potential distribution channels.

They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. But they never met someone who made mortality itself need a new business plan – complete with 10 pages of cursive suggestions for improvement, properly timed around afternoon naps, of course.

Life, we’re learning, is just another system waiting to be optimized. And nobody optimizes quite like UT – the one who stared into the void and made it wonder if it needed a better UX.

Keep living, keep laughing, keep making the impossible look like it just needs better documentation. Because in a world of billions, there’s only one UT – the person who reminded us that even in our darkest moments, there’s always room for one more feature update in life’s endless deployment cycle.

— Events —

September melted into October, each day a new chapter in this surreal story:

  • Day 1: Everything has gone to shit
  • Day 3: Procedure is complete, recovery starts
  • Day 5: The ventilator comes off, a brief intermission in life’s intense theater
  • Day 7, 5 AM: Plot twist – lungs decide to explore their aquatic potential. Ventilator on again.
  • Day 11: “He has to take a U-turn, things look very bad.” (Spoiler: UT has never been good at following directions)
  • Day 15: Eyes open, spirit undiminished, death checking its calendar for a rain check
  • Day 17: First meal, probably mentally drafting a pitch deck about disrupting hospital food

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A graduate from BITS Pilani, class of 2019, I am currently working as a Product Manager at Flipkart. I like to write about things that get stuck in my head. By writing I make sure everyone knows what absurd thoughts I have :P Thanks for visiting.

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  1. i remember crying some days but i also remember telling everyone almost everyday he would walk and leave St John’s. And he did. Cuz UT doesn’t give up. Love both of you sm. 💗💗

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  2. It was very tough time. When Doctor’s say ,make prayer,everything is shaken.You have rightly said in last paragraph.So first thing is Health and peaceful mind. May God bless you and your friend.

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